What's the point in all the screaming?

3:30pm: i am far too bored for my own good
1) Were you born in San Diego? yesssss.
2) Were you raised in San Diego? yes yes!
3) What region do you live in? del mar
4) Do you think San Diego is really America's Finest? pretty close i'd say.
5) If you couldn't live in SD, where would you live? ohhh... Israel, or the east coast, or somewhere else in cali.
6) Do you like the weather? ya im not complaining!
7) Do you like the school district? mine was alright
8) If you could live anywhere in SD, where would you live? probably encinitas or down town
9) What do you think about dem Padres? indifferent. blind support.
10) What do you think about dem Chargers? same as above

Have you ever.../ Have you ever been..

[x] Been to SeaWorld
[x] Been to the World famous San Diego Zoo
[x] Been to the Wild Animal Park
[x] Been to Legoland
[] Rode the Big Dipper at Belmont Park
[x] Been to a Family Fun Center
[x] Been Bowling
[ ] Been paintballing at Velocity
[ ] Went to Miramar Speed Circuit
[x] Went to the White Water Canyon/Soak City
[x] Seen a concert at the Coors Amphitheatre
[x] Been to Coronado
[x] Been to Cabrillo National Monument/Lighthouse
[x] Been to SD airport
[x] Been to SD train station
[x] Been to Old Town
[x] Rode in a train in SD
[] Rode in a bus in SD (we have busses?????)
[] Rode a trolley in SD
[x] Flown a plane out of SD
[] Been on a cruise ship that left SD
[x] Been to UCSD campus
[x] Been to SDSU campus
[] Been to USD campus
[x] Been to steven Birch Aquarium
[x] Been to the Sports Arena
[x] Been to Qualcomm Stadium
[] Been to Petco Park
[x] Been to a Charger's game
[x] Been to a Padres game
[x] Been to a Gull's game
[] Been to a Stingers game
[] Been to a SD Soccers game
[] Been to a Aztes/Tritons/Torreros Game
[x] Been to Balboa Park
[x] Been to Miramar Air Show
[] Been hangliding over Black's beach/Del Mar beach
[x] Been to Tijuana
[x] Been to the Del Mar Fair
[] been to Mission San Diego de Alcala
[x] Been to Julian
[] Been to Spreckles Theatre
[x] Been to the Old Globe theatre
[x] Been to Seaport Village
[x] Been to Ultrazone
[x] Been iceskating
[x]Been to the Wave Waterpark
[] Been to the Haunted House on Fremont street
[] Been to the Haunted Trails at Balboa Park
[x] Been to the Del Mar Scaregrounds
[] Been to a Skatepark
[x] Been to a local YMCA
[x] Been golfing
[x] Been surfing
[] Been snowboarding at Local Mountains (Big Bear/Mtn High/Mt Baldy)
[x] Been to the Nightime Zoo
[] Been to the SD Auto Show
[] Been to COMICON
[] Been to the Boat Show
[] Been to the annual spring home garden show
[x] Been on the USS Midway
[] Been on the Star of India
[x] Been to Solid Rock Gym
[] Been to the Batter's Box
[] Been on top of Mount Soledad
[] Entered the Suzuki Rock n' Roll Marathon
[x] Been to Black's Beach
[] Taken the ferry to Coronado or back
[x] Been on Fiesta Island
[x] Seen the Seaworld fireworks
[x] Been on the Seaport Village Merry-go-round
[] Been street skating at Skateworld
[x] Been to an IMAX movie
[x] Went to the mall
[] Been to the San Diego Japanese Friendship Garden
[x] Been to the Aerospace Museum
[x] Been to Horton Plaza
[x] Been to the Gaslamp Quarter
[x] Been to the Museum of Man

Would you rather...

Have season tickets to the Padres or Chargers? chargers...football is exciting!!
Live in Scripps Ranch or Rancho Bernardo? RB!!!!
Live in Mira Mesa or Clairemont Mesa? ugh, neither.
Live in Pacific Beach or Ocean Beach? OB
Live in La Jolla or Del Mar? DEL MAR for sure.
Live in Rancho Santa Fe or La Jolla? la jolla... rsf doesnt even have the ocean and they are pretentious as hell.
Live in East San Diego or Barrio Logan? east san diego, but i wouldnt like it!!!
Live near the beach or live inland/near mountains? beach definitely.
Go to the Zoo or Wild Animal Park? WILD ANIMAL PARK

6:10pm: im so bored...
1. Ever kissed a brown eyed and brown haired person?
i am partial to brown heads.

2. Can you see a phone right now?
yes

3. What are you listening to right now?
sad music

4. Where is it coming from?
my computer.

5. Last thing you ate?
a peach

6. What was the last thing you saw on TV?
oprah

7. Who was the last person other than family you saw [not in school]?
work people, ya preschool....

17. Do you like Techno?
not really

18. Have you ever been to a night club?
not like a real one i dont think

20. Have you ever made out on a plane?
no. i tend to fly alone or with family

21. Do you have leadership skills?
yeah i do

22. Can you play an instrument?
elementary flute

23. Have you ever sat on a roof and looked at stars?
yes

24. Ever done that while talking on the phone to a boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope can't say i have

28. Are you currently pregnant/have you recently gotten someone pregnant?
no, thank goodness!!!

29. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
no, sadness.

30. What scent are you wearing right now?
green capri's and a pinkish shirt

31. Are there any animals around you at the moment?
not in my room

32. Drinking anything at the moment?
no, but i am thirsty. an alcoholic beverage reallllly wouldnt hurt right now.

33. Ever thought you were going to get married?
i really hope i do

36. Favorite time of day?
i dont know

38. Favorite food?
any kind of fruit, and i love pizza too

39. Do you like spiders?
not even a little bit

40. Cat person or dog person?
cat person

41. Got a job?
yeah. preschool...the joy of my life. =(

43. Tan or pale skin?
im pale. very pale.

44. You're deserted on an island, what do you have with you?
do i sound like a dork if i say my computer???? hmmm, good friends

46. Biggest regret?
i have too much regret for a 19 year old. im working on that.

48. What do you want the most?
true happiness, love, success

49. Do you want children?
i'm undecided on that one

50. Are you a lover or a fighter?
neither. i dont really fight for what i want, which makes me bitter, not happy/loving.... so ya, im neither.

51. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
earlier

52. What was your last alcoholic beverage?
champaigne. good times....did i mention im quite allergic???

53. How is your mood today?
unseasonally down.

54. Where was your last vacation at?
i dunno... home is vacation right?

55. Who is/are the friend(s) you can count on the most?
danielle, kate, angela, my sister

56. What do you do all the time in a car?
singing loudly has been my morning routine on the way to work as of late.

57. Do you like anyone?
not really, no

58. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
yes, recently too

59. Who was the last person to make you cry?
i cried last because of a situation, not a person. tho if we are playing the blame game, i could definitely name names.

61. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you have hooked up with/ dated?
a year at most i'd say although i dont really know

62. When was the last time you cried?
today. im so stressed and anxious, i dont know why!

63. What is one thing you miss about your past?
not having to worry about money

64. What is one thing you've learned about life?
in the end all you have is yourself, so you better be happy with who you are

65. What are you plans for tomorrow?
work then i dont know what

66. Is anyone jealous of you?
if they really knew me, they wouldnt be jealous!

67. Has a friend ever used you?
no, i have pretty decent friends.

68. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?
no

69. Who was the last person you drove with?
umm i drove with kristin yesterday

70. Why are you filling out this survey?
hideously bored.

71. What was the last movie you watched?
hmmm, knocked up?

73. What is something that you want to do within the next week?
hang out with friends??? i dunno... maybe seaworld is i can convince my sister

74. Who last text messaged you?
clara

75. Who was the last person you hugged?
ummm elena...at work. lol

76. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
absolutely

77. If you could change anything about your past, what would it be?
i cant change it can i?

78. Is there anyone you are excited to see soon?
ELANA!!!!!!!

79. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
yeah, that's what junor high is all about right???

80. Do you use post-its?
yup

81. Do you like gum?
yeah, if i have it i will chew it but i dont miss it if im out

82. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
more girls, but then male friends i do have tend to rock

83. How long have you had MySpace?
huh i dunno

84. Has anyone ever talked about you behind your back?
probably? i dont know

85. Favorite boys name?
i dunno

86. Favorite girls name?
i dunno

87. What are some of your biggest fears of your life?
being unhappy, alone, and poor.

88. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeah but its definitely not a regular occurance.

89. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
ohhhh yes

90. Are you a player?
nope not at all

11:59am: packing is a bitch.
i'm done.
it feels weird--a good weird though.

i will be home in two days. home for over 3 months, woah. i'm very excited. i will update more later. actually, probably not, but you never know.

12:33pm: news flash: pms does not improve roommate relations.
HOME. IN. 12. DAYS.

12:16pm: this was a good way to avoid my life
sound track of my life...some of it was even accurate!

Opening Credits: Roll With It -Oasis

Waking Up: Take It All Away –Ryan Cabrera

Falling in Love: What U See (Is What U Get) –Britney Spears

Love Scene: I Will Buy You A New Life -Everclear

Fight scene: Californication -RHCP

Breaking up: I Know You By Heart –Bette Midler

Getting back together: Kiss Me –Six Pence None The Richer

Secret Love: Let Go –Frou Frou

Life's okay: The Only Living Boy In New York –Simon and Garfunkel

Mental Breakdown: You Learn –Alanis Morissette

Driving Flashback: The Nearness Of You –Norah Jones

Partying: Holiday -Madonna

Happy Dance: Don’t Want You Back -BSB

Regretting: Stranger Than Your Sympathy –Goo Goo Dolls

Long night alone: Belle –Jack Johnson

Final Battle: Fool To Think –Dave Mathews Band

Death scene: Cast No Shadow -Oasis

End credits: Fair –Remy Zero

3:34pm: the first beloit SNOW

beautiful snow!


the view from my window

4:02pm: umm heck yes i belong in sandy ego

You Belong in San Diego

Laid back and friendly, you were meant to live most of your life on the beach. You usually think everything is "all good"... except when the weather dips under 60F. You stay classy - especially when you're in Tijuana!

2:21am: my life?

8:16pm: someone
Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Chorus: Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

9:32am: i realllllly should be doing work right now. not even funny. i suck at life.
Here are the rules:

1. You can only say Yes or No

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.


Kissed someone on your top 8/16/24? :
i hate myspace... ok, i just broke the rules on the first question!

Danced in front of your mirror naked?
no

Ever told a lie?
yes

Been arrested?
no

Kissed someone of the same sex?
yes but not sexually

Slept in until 5 PM?
yes

Had sex at work?
no

Fallen asleep at work/school?
no

Held a snake?
yes

Ran a red light?
yes, funny story tooo

Been suspende.d from school?
haha no but close. i wouldn't recomend ditching saturday schools....

Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident?
basically yeah

Been fired from a job?
yes, yes, yes.

Sang karaoke?
yeah i have!!!!!!! i am SO asian i loooove iy

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
only everyday of my life

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
haha no, is that even possible? i have to know...

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
yup!

Kissed in the rain?
nooo and it's one of my goals in life, shoooot.

Sang in the shower?
yesssss i misss my shower....

Gave your private parts a nickname?
yeah, doesn't everyone???

Sat on a roof top?
YUP

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
ummm not that i can recall

Broken a bone?
yesss

Shaved your head?
umm noooo way in hell.

Slept naked?
yeah

Blacked out from drinking?
that is slightly debatable.

Played a prank on someone?
yeahhhh i am such a bitch

Had a gym membership?
yeahhh duh

Felt like killing someone?
yes

Cried over someone you were in love with?
yeah how lame am i

Had sex more than 3 times in one day?
yeah, NO...

Had Mexican jumping beans for pets?
haha noo but we sold them at learning express and they totally expire after like 3 months and they don't jump any more and it is so sad..

Been in a band?
airbandsss baby

Subscribed to Maxim?
definitely not

Shot a gun?
haha noooo

Played strip poker?
not seriously

Tripped on mushrooms?
just call me prude.

Donated Blood?
no, i tried but the fuckers said i didnt have enough iron.

Video taped yourself having sex?
noooooo

Eaten alligator meat?
aww stever irwin! nope

Eaten cheesecake?
yes, i freaking looove it

Still love someone you shouldn't?
ughhh yes.

Have a tattoo?
nope, not everrrr

9:44am: why ISRAEL is better then you.
* The cell phone was developed in Israel by Israelis working in the Israeli branch of Motorola, which has its largest development center in Israel.

* Most of the Windows NT and XP operating systems were developed by Microsoft-Israel.

* The Pentium MMX Chip technology was designed in Israel at Intel. Both the Pentium-4 microprocessor and the Centrino processor were entirely designed, developed and produced in Israel.

* The Pentium microprocessor in your computer was most likely made in Israel.

* Voice mail technology was developed in Israel.

* Both Microsoft and Cisco built their only R&D facilities outside the US in Israel.

* The technology for the AOL Instant Messenger ICQ was developed in 1996 by four young Israelis.

* Israel has the fourth largest air force in the world (after the U.S., Russia and China). In addition to a large variety of other aircraft, Israel's air force has an aerial arsenal of over 250

* F-16's. This is the largest fleet of F-16 aircraft outside of the U. S. Israel 's $100 billion economy is larger than all of its immediate neighbors combined .

* Israel has the highest percentage in the world of home computers per capita.

* According to industry officials, Israel designed the airline industry's most impenetrable flight security. U.S. officials now look (finally) to Israel for advice on how to handle airborne security threats.

* Israel has the highest ratio of university degrees to the population in the world.

* Israel produces more scientific papers per capita than any ither nation by a large margin - 109 per 10,000 people --as well as one of the highest per capita rates of patents filed.

* In proportion to its population, Israel has the largest number of startup companies in the world. In absolute terms, Israel has the largest number of startup companies than any other country in the world, except the U.S. (3,500 companies mostly in hi-tech).

* On a per capita basis, Israel has the largestnumber of biotech startups.

* With more than 3,000 high-tech companies and startups,! Israel has the highest concentration of hi-tech companies in the world -- apart from the Silicon Valley, U.S.

* Israel is ranked #2 in the world for venture capital funds right behind the U.S. Outside the United States and Canada, Israel has the largest number of NASDAQ listed companies.

* Israel has the highest average living standards in the Middle East.

* The per capita income in 2000 was over $17,500, exceeding that of the U.K.

* Twenty-four per cent of Israel's workforce holds university degrees, ranking third in the industrialized world, after the United States and Holland and 12 per cent hold advanced degrees.

* Israel is the only liberal democracy in the Middle East.

* In 1984 and 1991, Israel airlifted a total of 22,000 Ethiopian Jews (Operation Solomon) at Risk in Ethiopia, to safety in Israel.

* When Golda Meir was elected Prime Minister of Israel in 1969, she became the world's second elected female leader in modern times.

* When the U. S. Embassy in Nairobi, Kenya was bombed in 1998, Israeli rescue teams were on the scene within a day -- and saved three victims from the rubble.

* Israel has the third highest rate of entrepreneurship -- and the highest rate among women and among people over 55 - in the world.

* Relative to its population, Israel is the largest immigrant-absorbing nation on earth. Immigrants come in search of democracy, religious freedom, and economic opportunity. (Hundreds of thousands from the former Soviet Union)

* Israel was the first nation in the world to adopt the Kimberly process, an international standard that certifies diamonds as "conflict free."

* Israel has the world's second highest per capita of new books.

* Israel is the only country in the world that entered the 21st century with a net gain in its number of trees, made more remarkable because this was achieved in an area considered mainly desert.

* Israel has more museums per capita than any other country.

* Israeli scientists developed the first fully computerized, no-radiation, diagnostic instrumentation for breast cancer.

* An Israeli company developed a computerized system for ensuring proper administration of medications, thus removing human error from medical treatment. Every year in U. S. hospitals 7,000 patients die from treatment mistakes.

* Israel's Given Imaging developed the first ingestible video camera, so small it fits inside a pill. Used to view the small intestine from the inside, cancer and digestive disorders .

* Researchers in Israel developed a new device that directly helps the heart pump blood, an innovation with the potential to save lives among those with heart failure. The new device is synchronized with the camera helps doctors diagnose heart's mechanical operations through a sophisticated system of sensors.

* Israel leads the world in the number of scientists and technicians in the workforce, with 145 per 10,000, as opposed to 85 in the U.S., over 70 in Japan, and less than 60 in Germany. With over 25% of its workforce employed in technical professions, Israel places first in this category as well.

*Israel was the first, and perhaps only, country to initiate at MINIMUM body mass index for models to promote health and good body image for young girls.

* A new acne treatment developed in Israel -- the Clear Light device produces a high-intensity, ultraviolet-light-free, narrow-band blue light that causes acne bacteria to self-destruct -- all without damaging surrounding skin or tissue.

* An Israeli company was the first to develop and install a large-scale solar-powered and fully functional electricity generating plant, in southern California's Mojave desert.

* All the above while engaged in regular wars with an implacable enemy that seeks its destruction, and an economy continuously under strain by having to spend more per capita on its own protection than any other county on earth.


basically Israel rocks. you think if the palestinians or hezbolah or whatever have control of Israel it would have ANY of the above. i think not. so basically Israel and Israeli's have BEYOND earned their right to the land (not that they ever really needed to earn it in the first place considering it was g-d given, whatever) so everyone just needs stop beating on the homeland. kthnxbye.

9:28am: things you find out when you least expect it.
hahaha i'm DEFINITELY allergic to sulfites.
ohhhh man...funny night.
it's going to be an even funnier day... i get to have lunch with my grandparents with a large rash on my face. oh man.

i fucking love my life!!!!!

2:29pm: if you didn't get the email and you care.
Hello everyone!

I'm bored right now (aka: putting off doing work...whatever)
so I thought I'd write a
quick update of what I've been up to.
First off, let me say that Beloit Wisconsin is a pretty
happening place...it has one
walmart, one grocery store, one book store (the campus
bookstore...) a couple
banks and a couple restaurants. There is such an abundance
of things to do here!
(note the sarcasm...) Some how (I'm not always sure how) my
friends and I find
things to keep us occupied. People tend to "hang out" at wal
mart around here... I
for one find that pretty strange... I guess I'm just a
little too high class for walmart?
maybe...
This week I officially started classes! I'm taking a
freshman seminar class (it's about
diversity) intro to statistics, intro to philosophy, and
alternative perspectives in
education. basically my classes are pretty difficult...not
that I was not expecting
that, but, well I wasn't expecting that. I am enjoying them
enough though, and
they do keep me occupied, so that is a plus. not to mention
the fact that I am in
college and technically speaking i did come here for
education...whatever that
means. well if all goes as planned I will be a credentialed
teacher in 4 years.. haha
hide your children, that is a scary thought!
what else can i bore you poor people who happen to be in my
address book with...
hmm, my roommates are great! they are well suited for roommates...they are
pretty courteous and such.
OH! I watched mean girls with some people in my hall the
other day! it was
exciting...but I'm pretty sure mean girls is more of a
significant part of my life then
any of theirs... i have yet to find a group of mean
girls...these midwesterners are
too fucking nice. oh well.
hmm what else... the food is... not that amazing, I can't
lie. however there is frozen
yogurt to help with my golden spoon nostalgia! (aww i really
want la salsa right
now...whatever)
well that's all for now. sorry if you just happen to be in
my address book and you
don't really care about my life... sucks for you.

Love Always,
Marta

PS: you should email me back. OR if you really like me you
can write me actual
letters (my mail box is so lonely!)

bornstei@stu.beloit.edu (ya thats bornstein without the n)

8:47am: bitter sweet-- nonetheless, goodbye (see you later??)
i'm leaving
i'm gone

i have a lot to gain. i will miss those i leave behind.

later sd.

l'hitraot!

9:55am: time flies!!!
i leave on friday...ah!
if you want to see me feel free...some days are better then others...i work until 2 every single day. monday doesn't work and neither does thursday--those days are reserved for homags and friends of homags. sorry.
kthxbye

this has been an AMAZING summer with some AMAZING friends. gah, i love them. and i will miss this place.

8:11am: i'm so hollow baby
i love you, i swear that's true. i cannot live without you.

11:54am: can you come back home again
i leave in 14 days
2 weeks

i'm scared!

i need to call my roommates... but i'm scared.


have an easy fast... gotta love random Jewish holidays that require me not to eat...woot.
i'm only doing half day because we have jerusalem back, however i should fast the whole day... basically i just don't want to. yeah, tisha b'av...

today is also international homag day. i love the homag. today includes (if the weather gets better) : mini golf and bumper boats, golden spoon, boba (bubble tea) and MEAN GIRLS.
homag=love

these next 2 weeks are going to be interesting... work, lizzy visiting, mom out of town, alex visiting, palomar with friends... packing. oh man, i dont want to pack. that is so final. and i am so bad at packing. i always pack too much or not enough...meh, im so overwhelmed.
i need to go to the doctor.
i think i have social phobia. i keep backing out of "fun" social gatherings at the last minute because it makes me sick. why am i such a freak
meh. i dont want to leave but i dont want to stay.
i'm excited but terrified.
i need to call my roommates
i need to get my shit together!
i need to stop saying yes when i really should say no. i cant do everything!
i need to be more preductive.
hence, goodbye.

3:18pm: Yerushamiem Shel Zahav
i'm afraid for Israel right now.
for my family, for my friends, for my country.
i pray that there is no war and that there is no more death, in Israel OR in Lebanon.
every country has the right to defend it self, but the outcome is nothing short of tragic.

i'm praying for my homeland!

everyone be safe.

9:29pm: blue sky holiday
Name 3 things in your purse/wallet:
1. License
2. travelers prayer
3. sun glasses

Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed:
1. be a bitch to people
2. listen to music
3. deal with whatever is stressing me out (ie: too much homework, i DO my homework...novel right?)

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis:
1. Beth Am
2. golden spoon (generally, lol)
3. my room?

Name 3 favorite fruits:
1. oranges
2. peaches
3. raspberries

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. senior shabbaton shirt
2. grey shorts
3. braceletts

| T | h | e | W | h | o | s |

Who is in the room with you?
the sis

Who was the last person to IM you?
kristin

Who are you thinking about right now?
the homag, dur

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
elana!

Whose house did you last go to?
tanya's (HIT)

Who do you sit next to in your 4th period class?
oh, i dont have a fourth period! SUMMER!

Whose birthday is next?
hmmm my sisters? and karissas halfy

Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
ang boo of course HOMAG for ever

Who annoys you the most at school?
its SUMMER!

T | H | E | W | H | E | R | E | S

Where is your phone?
my cell phone is right next to me.

Where is/are your parent(s)?
my mom is asleep in her room.

Where do you sleep?
in my bed!

Where is the last place you took a ride to?
to hillcrest for fun with the girls

| T | h | e | W | h | a | t | s |

What was the last thing you ate?
peanutbutter milkshake from corvetts

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
the couch

What do you like best about school?
that it is SUMMER. dur

What is your favorite color?
purple and green

What is your favorite website?
wwww.postsecret.com

What kind of surgery have you had?
NONE (thank goodness!)

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
definitely jeans

What is the last movie you watched?
MULAN (it's for asian lovers.)

What song do you currently hear?
im not listening to music, however "Bad Day" by daniel powter is stuck in my head. it's not very uplifting.

| T | h | e | W | h | y | s |

Why does basically half the world have a myspace?
because it's a fad. facebook is better.

Why is wood brown?
because its natural? i hate this question.

| T | h | e | W | h | e | n | s |

When did you start school?
when i was 5 years old.

When did you meet your best friend?
my first best friend, kate, and i met when we were infants.

When is your birthday?
march 31

When did you last go to the mall?
a long time ago. im broke.

When did you last burn a candle?
it's been a while.

When were you last at school?
grad night. june 17th

blah im bored

3:01pm: and i don't want to go home right now
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i LOVE postsecret.com
it MAKES my sunday's.
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college-- six|weeks|ohmygah

i want the whole world to love me =)

8:57pm: there's beauty in the breakdown


Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colours on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will...


really tough day..
it calls for a beautiful song and art combo, don't you agree?

12:11pm: it wasn't that we didn't try cause we did, i know-- i know.
things (good&bad) that i don't want to forget from my senior year:::
-how it feels to be the new kid and not know anyone
-how it feels to be left out by friends
-how it feels to be fired
-how it feels to get all A's
-how it feels to be cared for
-how it feels to be with friends who love you
-how it feels to be beyond drunk
-how it feels to be just a little tipsy
-how it feels to loose someone you love but not really loose them
-how it feels to love someone who will never love you the same way
-how it feels to succeed
-how it feels to be accepted and wanted and appreciated
-how it feels to be anxious and excited
-how it feels to be done and relieved
-how it feels to have someone know you as well as you know yourself
-how it feels to know someone as well as they know themself
-how it feels to love someone so much that their pain is my own
-how it feels to be challenged physically, mentally, and morally

good or bad, it's over. i enjoyed it in full.

3:33pm: there are places i remember all my life, though some have changed.
HOW I DECORATED MY CAP:
"Where we love is home, home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts" (aka my moto right now)
Israeli flag (hearto-staro gram tho)
AM YISRAEL CHAI
USY
BETH AM
DEL MAR
monsters inc pin :)
I <3 u!

i'm graduated.
i am no longer a senior but a frshman---oh my gah, that sucks! oh well...
i never have to step foot on my high school campus again... but i probably will...haha this year was pretty alright.
grad night was very fun.
the psychic/neumerolagist scared me... she was so right.
she said that i am:
-incredibly strong (according to my name value)
-my body is sensitive to food and alcohol and allergies
-i am a good (technical)writer
-i underestimate myself
-i should believe in myself more
-i work very hard and am dedicated
-i am good at both managing and being involved and i should go into some sort of business
-i need to open up to people more because i am too private
BASICALLy, she was right on...

i also won a $50 gift card to the container store... yey me!

2 months until college. WOW.

AND i am SICK of people making fun of wisconsin and comments like, "why are you going to WISCONSIN???? why would you leave this beautiful place with beautiful weather??" GUESS WHAT PEOPLE! this isnt real! this is so not real. i want to venture out. there is more to life then weather and beaches. honestly, don't knock wisconsin OR ANY PLACE. at least im going somewhere. at least im trying something new and leaving my comfort zone. i dont want to live here for the rest of my life, never seeing anything beyond this place. HELLO there is more to life and that is what i plan to experience--good or bad, it will be REAL. so next time someone tells you they are going somewhere or doing something that doesn't fit into your idea of perfection--open up your mind, consider the risk that they are taking in order to find themselves, and be proud of them.

alright, i'm out... its SUMMER!

2:13pm: i'm useless, but not for long.
"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."
-A.A. Milne








I'm LUCKY that my kindergarten class photo still provides familiar faces the week of my high school graduation. oh, nostalgia!

7:52pm: my last regional USY event. EVER
this weekend was so amazing and so emotional. fron beit tshuvah, to elections, to senior goodbyes... from good times in the hotel room, getting pretty for god (hahah) to winning chapter of excellence. I will never forget the ups and the downs and my amazing friendws who made it all worth it. this weekend was just plain heartable.



WISCONSIN BUDDIES!!!! oh man, i love this girl... we are seriously like twins. I can't wait to be in the same state as her next year! woopwoop!



ahh soo sad... seniors '06 = LOVE


gah, you want us, we are hot!



we feel pretty, oh so pretty!!!!



this is USY in a nut shell. Club no (so) fun... i love you sooo much. thank you for the most amazing weekend ever. i will miss you all so much.

thanks far west, it has been an amazing journey.